Faking a Smile

On October 18th, I had my second miscarriage.

I didn't really tell anyone.

I have put on a fake smile and let everyone think that everything is okay, that nothing out of the ordinary is going on.

I was prepping for The Threadery. I was getting ready to see lots of people there. I didn't want the attention. I didn't want the hugs. And let's be honest, I didn't want to hear the things people say to comfort you but hurt you even more.

I kept myself distracted. I kept myself busy. I WAS okay, in a sense.

And then The Threadery was over. And I had time to hurt. And I hurt. I am broken.

My emotions are EVERYwhere. I am sad. I am confused. If I want to be really real; I feel guilty that I can't help thinking about my first miscarriage. The one that happened 5 years ago today. I feel guilty that as devastated and sad as I am now, it fails in comparison to the one I had then. Maybe because I was further along? Maybe because I was more bonded with the baby I had known for longer? I don't know.

Now I sit here aching. I am mourning the 5 year of the first baby that I lost and now I am mourning baby number 2. I am broken.

I wasn't going to share this at all. I didn't want to tell anyone really. A friend told me I should. Not because I am obligated to but because I need your prayers.

You have all been there for me. You prayed with me throughout my pregnancy with Talon and we saw miracles. You showed me more love and compassion after I shared about my first miscarriage than I could have even imagined.

I need you all again. I need to get through this time. I know I will. I have before. But I need to be okay for my kids. I need to not lock myself in my home for months at a time like I did before. I just need prayer.

God has been so faithful and I find comfort in Him. I find comfort in knowing that my babies are with Him.

I will be okay because I find refuge in God but can you all just pray for me and my family?

THIS Saturday

It's almost here, It's almost here!!!

THIS Saturday is The Threadery. Nicole and I can not be more excited. We have worked so hard on this event. It is something we are seriously proud of and we hope that you will come and share in the fun.

So be there!

Saturday, October 22

9:00 AM- 4:00 PM

at

505 W. Lambert Rd

Brea, Ca 92821

The location is on the main street and will be easy for you to find. Take a look through our vendors shops and make your shopping lists.

• A Handcrafted Home
• Bethadee Zoo
• Eisley Rae
• Fairly Fabulous
• Fleeting Beauty
• Happy Bee Boutique
• Lillybug Lane
• Little Wellies
• Make It Cozee
• Mama Matryoshka
• Moxxie Essential Care
• Nature Mama
• OliveBlue
• Polka Dots and Poppies
• Rags To Stitches
• Rellas Bellas
• Rock A Bow
• This Little Piggie

Want more info on what you can expect? Watch here: 
 

Toddler Talk Tuesday- A Princess Party

People! My baby is 3! When on earth did this happen? I used to think people were crazy when they talked about how time flies and their kids grew up too fast. "Sorry weirdos but time does not speed up when you have kids". But do you want to know a secret? It totally does. Yes, I am now one of those crazy weirdos! My daughter is growing up too fast!!

To celebrate her big day, I wanted to do something like a candyland party. Did you know that at 3, kids have a mind of their own? Well they do and my girl insisted on princess. So princess party it was.

 

I simplified the look by doing more of a florally fabric and chalkboard look and then throwing in princess here and there. Princess stuff is pricey and this momma is on a budget!

I made lots of bunting and a table runner. Hubby attached short temporary legs to our table and I made little pillows for the princesses to sit on.

For favors I made all the girls crowns. And by girls I mean mommies and daughters. The dads were a little jealous.

The girls ate, played and dressed up. We had cake and cake pops and cupcakes. We like cake :)

{Poor Talon tried to walk with his cake and it ended poorly}

After the party was all wrapped up, we cleaned up to start all over. I have a big family and Rhiannon doesn't like big crowds so separating the two parties was ideal for my little introvert.

We had so much fun at both parties.

What did you do this weekend?

NEW Dress Line

A few months ago I had an idea for a really fun dress line. I wanted something that I loved but also something that represented where Rock-A-Bow came from. If you don't know the story, the gist of it is this: Rock-A-Bow was inspired by Rhi and a friend, their love for girly and fun. It has now grown into something much bigger than I imagined. Now that I have learned to sew, I wanted to bring back that inspiration of Rhiannon and her little friends. What they love.

I contacted a few of Rhiannon's best friends moms and had them pick fabrics for a dress, fabrics that would best showcase their little girl. I LOVE everything they chose. It is beautiful. I love this dress line. I am so excited to release it. Drum roll please.......

Hopscotch and Lollipops by Rock-A-Bow Dress line

The dresses are now listed in the shop. I advise you all get over there quick. They were on pre-sale for one week and the inside scoop is the orders are going to come in quickly :) 

Here are some of my favorite shots from the photoshoot. 

These models had some serious character.

And serious beauty!

They tore apart my set....

And made a mad dash.

They reminded me why they were all there...

Their sweet friendships!

My inspiration!!!

Now head on over and check these babies out. 

Impressed by the fab photos? I was too. I have an amazing photog AND I think he's hot. Go check out his website and/or FB. Tell him I sent you.

New market look

This weekend was The Sew Funky Market in Riverside. I changed up my booth a little bit for this show and I loved it.

I have been using a vanity in my display for a while now but that has become Rhi's homeschool desk. I do not like the idea of moving her desk in and out. I have been stressing a bit over what I was gonna do and God provided. Seriously, there is no other explanation for the shelves my husband found me to be sitting at a dumpster begging for my favorite blue Rustoleum Spray paint to coat them.

So we replaced my vanity with a new beautiful shelf. We added some framed chalkboards that are now being sold at markets (not the shop yet). The overall look is so fun. Check it out...well the detail shots because some nerd forgot to take an overall shot of the whole booth. I am not going to name any names but he happens to be a photographer and I'm married to him. I do have an insta-gram photo of it for ya.

Joy in the Chaos

Yes, I have been MIA once again. I feel like life has been one thing after another lately. In a good way though. I have been crazy busy with homeschooling, church, family, friends and business. It feels like I am always telling Steven that after"x,y and z" things will be a lot more relaxed. That the chaos will subside for a short while. I am always wrong.

I am coming to terms with the fact that we are just busy people. In all honesty, I kind of like it. I have friends who have said they need to rescue me from the madness and although I LOVE spending time out with friends, I do not feel the need to be rescued.

The chaos in my home means nothing but good things to me. To me, when family life is super busy, it means we are having fun and enjoying eachother...making memories. Rock-A-Bow has kept me crazy busy, what a blessing that God has given me in this business. Everything in my life that keeps me running around like a chicken with my head cut off shows me that I am blessed beyond measure. I am happy with my chaos. I find joy in my crazy.

This is not to say that I don't get stressed out, trust me, there is stress involved in all of this. Ha! It is ok though. We are happy and functioning. I am enjoying all that is thrown my way. I am not to the point of overwhelmed and if I get there I will be happy to cut out certain things.

I think it is important to know our limits. I also think it is important to fill our days with what we love. I am so blessed to love what I do daily. Not everyone is lucky enough to love what they do. I truly love my job. By job I mean not only Rock-A-Bow but being home with my kids. That's work people. I love my role!

On that note, one of the many things keeping me busy are all of the upcoming markets. First up is Sew Funky. This weekend! Will you be there? Come say hello!

 

What is keeping you busy? Do any of you love to keep busy as much as I do?